A mom wrote to me, It is with a very sad heart that I write to you today. Although we had some wonderful times with my son upon his return from the service, I came home from work on Wednesday and found him dead in his room. I am devastated that it ended this way. He was such a loving son and cared deeply for his family and friends. A friend wrote to me and said what a good mother I was and that I did all I could, etc. I know I tried to do my best, but there was something troubling him that I could not help him with. Heroin was what he sought for comfort.
To this mom: I’m deeply and profoundly sorry for your loss. Your pain and suffering are beyond my comprehension. This is the worst nightmare, the greatest fear for those of us who love an addict. My sons and I will continue to fight addiction. We will continue to take it out of the shadows and put it into the light where we can see it and work to defeat it. You are not alone.
Today’s Promise to consider and her request: She asked me to,“Please remind your readers to never give up hope. Even though our journey ended tragically, I didn’t give up hope. This is giving me strength right now.”
It has taken me 3 days to process this meditation. My definition of courage strength, honesty and hope were re-defined when I read this. I offer my deepest sympathy to the mother and family who lost their son so tragically. It could be my son on any given day and I question whether or not I would have the courage that you have to offer others hope as your grieve the loss of your son.
Please accept my heartfelt sympathy and thanks for reminding us not to lose hope. I hope that the love and support of friends and family can comfort you at this time.
With love,
Nanci
So touched by this mother’s strength and courage. So very,very sad for her loss and the tragedy of finding her child. She and her family are in my prayers. I pray that God grant her son overwhelming peace.
Nanci and Teresa, You are so right – it takes time to process this meditation. Of all the entries we’ve written, this has had the fewest responses. I think you are both correct that it’s too hard to think about and too close to those of us whose children are still battling the disease. This is our worst nightmare. The fact that she asked me to write to our readers touched me deeply. Courage is taking one step and then another.
Love to you both, all our readers and Barbara.
L
My heart bleeds for this mother. I feel it in my heart, I cry so hard for her. But, know that your son is with my son and my grandson, in the arms of Jesus. Please know they are being comforted by Jesus. I hope that you find some comfort and peace knowing that they will never have to crave the addiction again. They are at peace now.
All my love and deepest sympathy.
Barbara
Dearest Barbara,
Welcome back. We’ve all missed you. Our love and respect to you,
Libby