A recovering addict told me, I was addicted for 30 years and was never able to get sober until I turned my world and life over to a power greater than myself. You know, I’m becoming more spiritual as time goes on and it’s beautiful. Like this morning, up at 5:30 watching the sun rise, having a cup of coffee, admiring my new BBQ I bought and it was just you know, thank God, this is so great. I could not imagine myself 20 years ago in this position.
My reflection: In talking with many recovering addicts, spirituality or ‘coming to believe in a power greater than myself’ are central themes in beating addiction and living a productive, sober life. They have discovered a God of their understanding that provides them peace and perspective.
Today’s Promise to consider: There are many ways to get clean and to live a good life, but believing in something bigger than we are big, something both outside and within ourselves, can make a difference in recovery. Life still is difficult and can be sticky, but our reliance on a power greater than ourselves can give us serenity and strength.
I was forty-nine when I discovered the God of my understanding. I remember that moment vividly and recall that for the first time in my life I was willing to give up my will and turn it completely over to His will. I surrendered totally. I believe a vital part of my transformation occurred due to the fact I no longer asked for nor listened for other human perspectives on God but developed a personal one on one relationship with Him. That, of course, required a new priority in my life, one that focused on mindfulness practices to clear the clutter that life stuffed in my mind and soul. I put God first.
The God of my understanding is the God of the Bible. As I celebrate His resurrection this Easter I remain in awe of His forgiveness and sacrifice for me and all who believe.
Religion played a huge part in my life growing up so I have always prayed during times of struggle to find the strength and courage I needed. For this reason I always found the slogan “Let go and let God” comforting. It gave me peace and reassurance that someone else would be there to protect and guide my daughter and give me strength to carry on with my own life.
I must say though that as the years go by and little changes I am finding it harder and harder to have faith.
I know that I am discouraged because I am still hoping someone will fix my daughter, I am still hoping for that miracle. I know her recovery is in her hands and I know she may never choose the path I want it to be but as I continue to pray I find I am asking myself why?
So I have to wonder if I ever really gave myself to my higher power before or just used that belief to try and get what I want? I have over the years had some periods of happiness but I realize I am still not living my life because I am still constantly consumed with what is happening with her. I am not truly “letting go and letting God”.
So with Easter here I am renewing my faith in God but this time without the expectations I set for him. This time I need to find my inner strength, it is my work to do.
Happy Easter everyone
I agree with you sue, Knowing and trusting Him in everything will help us to overcome our struggles. Reading His word will let us know His will for us. Instead of being addicted to drugs and alcohol, we can turn addiction into something better by attending Church activities, reading the bible and join in any small group that talks about the greatness of God. Through these you can find peace, genuine happiness and encouragement to others who experience the same situation. Treatment Care Recovery is just one of the rehab centers in our country that focuses on the spiritual aspect of an individual because they believe having an intimate relationship with God is the best way to stop addiction. God is a great healer. Trust Him that He can heal your daughter’s addiction. God Bless.
Dear Sue,
As I read your posting, I felt your sadness. The same sadness I felt when I look back at many years of not knowing where my son was. It took years for me to finally ‘let go and let God’. When I received that dreaded phone call about his passing, I didn’t think I could breathe, let alone have faith.
God had a different plan for my son and it wasn’t of this world. And, I try not to question it.
I pray that you soon will find the peace and serenity you deserve.
God bless you.
Barbara
Dear Sue,
So much of what you’ve written resonates with me. “Let Go and Let God,” was my mantra, too, but Jeff’s 14-year addiction suffocated me. In the end, I finally surrendered, truly surrendered, and my prayer was, “Dear Lord, you know what’s best. I give up.” I realized that Jeff could die and probably would, but I knew – in my deepest soul – that I was powerless. It was during this time that Jeff said (years later), “My mom became suspiciously calm. I knew she loved me and wouldn’t abandon me, but I also knew she wouldn’t help me again.” Then the miracle happened and Jeff chose to save his own life. He and his God.
Barbara, your son’s end was different and you suffered the ultimate pain, the ultimate loss. This is why your faith continues to inspire me. When you write on this blog, I pay attention.
Pat, your journey has been amazing. You’ve found peace and are now a huge help to others. God bless you.
Love you all,
L
Hi Libby,
We’re looking for a rehab for my son. One place that came up is Father Martins in Have De Grace, Md. It’s been a while since I read your book. Isn’t this a place that Jeff went to? I recognize the name. We live in Delaware.
Thank you,
Linda
Dear Linda,
Yes, Jeff went to Father Martin’s in Have De Grace. It’s a great place. He wasn’t ready to get clean, so his run continued for years, but Father Martin’s was good for him. They also have parent education weekends that I found to be very valuable.
Good luck. Let’s keep each other and our children in our prayers.
L
Hi Libby,
Funny how this facility stuck in my memory. I pray there is a reason this is where he is seaking treatment. He is there now. It looks so beautiful and peaceful. I am happy to hear that you talk well of it.
Again, thank you.
Linda